my ex dead wife and I

 My ex-dead wife and I were a few months apart in age. Actually it was about 60 days. While we were growing up I had a perfectly normal childhood. My parents adored me. They tried within reason to get me every thing I wanted and to give me every opportunity in life. Yet they gave me a balanced perspective on things, that life wasn't just about me, actually most of it's about Jesus and God. I grew up in a world that was rational. A world where you worked and got rewarded. A world where if you screwed up you got a spanking. A World where good grades made good things happen. My world had Christmas presents every year and sometimes a birthday party.

My ex dead wife's life didn't look anything like that. Our parents actually had reasonably similar jobs and she grew up in a reasonably similar environment, but her experience in life was completely different. It was miserable.

What is the point of this test? The only possible sense I can make out of it is it's far more complex than we can imagine. Either that or it's just sort of a random mess where God basically looks at what you do with what you have and that's what you get graded on. Maybe it's something else. Maybe it's all of the above or none of the above.

I believe that my ex dead wife and I will both be in the eternal Paradise. We will both receive good rewards. Somehow we will end up in relatively similar situations but we went down drastically different paths. She lived with demons the likes of which none of us could even imagine. Not even me. I lived with her and I watched her die.